When I was I kid, I used to cry every sunset... and I mean almost every... I would sit at the front of our gate and ask the sun, "Why do have to go?" It is as if its the last time I'll ever see the sun, a tear would drop from my eye and I would start to feel very bitter about the setting sun..... Well, no, Im not stupid enough not to know that the next day I will see the sun again. But its way too long for me, during those years of my life, sunset means the end of my playtime, my mom or yaya would call me and tell me, "The sun is setting! Time to go in." And to me that sounds like Im gonna be detained forever, especially when we are in the middle of fun running or ball games, which Im winning (yes, Im boyish and I always prefer playing with boys... because its easier to make them cry.) Ofcourse, I always have that, "Few-minutes-more-please plead." but when the sun is really going down, there will be no valid reason for me to stay out.
As I look back on those years, I wonder how impatient I am and how spoiled, to the mere fact that if I could ask my yaya to pull the sun and hold it still for me, I would ask her. But ofcourse I am concerned that it'll be too hot for her to hold and that she would tell it to my mom, (bummer' I'm more afraid of my mom than the sun.) It seemed all serious to me that time, I sometimes really run to my room and sob because of seeing that setting sun.. and worst part about it, is that I can't do anything... I just watch it go, no yell, tantrum, money, or even time can ever stop it from setting.
After so many years, the sun sets just as the same, but I look at it differently now, I don't grow bitter on her anymore, yet just the way it fascinates me when I was a kid, I still see the sun so mysterious. She's stubborn and no man can ever break her timeframe, she has the best discipline of always being on-time (something I am still learning up to now). And no spoiled kid could ever stop her from doing what she have to do. I see it now just the way every adult does, the sign of the end of the day, a sign of the time to rest after a long day. But sometimes, I wish I still see it the way I did when I was a kid, as if its the last sunset, so that I will always cherish it... so that I will always appreciate it.
