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Sunset for a 10 year old.

      When I was I kid, I used to cry every sunset... and I mean almost every... I would sit at the front of our gate and ask the sun, "Why do have to go?" It is as if its the last time I'll ever see the sun, a tear would drop from my eye and I would start to feel very bitter about the setting sun..... Well, no, Im not stupid enough not to know that the next day I will see the sun again. But its way too long for me, during those years of my life, sunset means the end of my playtime, my mom or yaya would call me and tell me, "The sun is setting! Time to go in." And to me that sounds like Im gonna be detained forever, especially when we are in the middle of fun running or ball games, which Im winning (yes, Im boyish and I always prefer playing with boys... because its easier to make them cry.) Ofcourse, I always have that, "Few-minutes-more-please plead." but when the sun is really going down, there will be no valid reason for me to stay out.    

  

  

      As I look back on those years, I wonder how impatient I am and how spoiled, to the mere fact that if I could ask my yaya to pull the sun and hold it still for me, I would ask her. But ofcourse I am concerned that it'll be too hot for her to hold and that she would tell it to my mom, (bummer' I'm more afraid of my mom than the sun.) It seemed all serious to me that time, I sometimes really run to my room and sob because of seeing that setting sun.. and worst part about it, is that I can't do anything... I just watch it go, no yell, tantrum, money, or even time can ever stop it from setting. 

    

      After so many years, the sun sets just as the same, but I look at it differently now, I don't grow bitter on her anymore, yet just the way it fascinates me when I was a kid, I still see the sun so mysterious. She's stubborn and no man can ever break her timeframe, she has the best discipline of always being on-time (something I am still learning up to now). And no spoiled kid could ever stop her from doing what she have to do.  I see it now just the way every adult does, the sign of the end of the day, a sign of the time to rest after a long day. But sometimes, I wish I still see it the way I did when I was a kid, as if its the last sunset, so that I will always cherish it... so that I will always appreciate it.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,

"declares the LORD,"

plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future.

This is God's promise to us, and He had stayed true to His word as He gave us this trial. When my sister got sick 2 months ago, she said this is the very verse God showed to her and a message one brethren also gave us. It was a struggling time for all of us. We are all worried about her. She's our youngest. She's our pride and glory in the family. Eversince she was in primary class, she have always achieved recognitions, medals and awards. It was hurtful to see her sick and not being able to eat well. She had to skip classes and got really thin. Yet God used the situation to bring out the best in us. Eveytime she is confined is a chance to get deeper in our relationship with the Lord. Everytime she gets well is a chance to glorify God's name. God is teaching us very important lessons, lessons that can only be learned the hard way... forgiveness, humility, discipline, patience and love. Forgiveness for we know that only when we free our hearts & forgive our others will God forgive us too. Humility, that the achievements of this worlds are all worthless if we cannot please God. Discipline...in taking care of our physical body and eating healthy foods that we may be more efficient for God. Patience, because healing is a process and everyday is a great day to know God is in control and will do the work for us. Love, most especially, letting us know that He gave us the right pair of parents, siblings, relatives and circle of God's family to care, support and pray for us. God showed the power of repentance and prayer. My sister is now in the healing process and I know she will get better. God is healing her and will restore her health. He is our gracious Jehovah-Rapha. In God's time she will be back to her normal physical health, but the lessons God have showed us will remain in our hearts. Indeed He kept His promise, that His plans are to prosper us and not to harm us, to give us hope and a 'better' future.

God is faithful, we are weak. It is only when we give our full dependence on Him will we know that we are strong. 

FAITH

Hebrews 11:1

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for
and certain of what we do not see."

Who could ever forget this scene?

Rose: I love you, Jack.
Jack: Don't you do that, don't say your good-byes.
Rose: I'm so cold.
Jack: Listen, Rose. You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on and make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in her bed, but not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me?
Rose: I can't feel my body.
Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.
Rose: I promise.
Jack: Never let go.
Rose: I'll never let go. I'll never let go, Jack.

This is probably the most memorable and saddest part in the famous Titanic movie... when Jack and Rose are saying their goodbyes, making promises and realizing that meeting each other on Titanic was one of the best thing that ever happened to them... I cant help but think, 'why didn't just Jack find another floating thing and save himself too?' ... But then if Titanic was a happy-ending story... it wouldn't be as remarkable as it is. This movie makes us realize a lot of things, some opportunities comes once in a lifetime, we have to enjoy life to the fullest, we can find love at the most unexpected places and time, and there are people who are meant to make the biggest impact in our life.

The one who found Titanic thought he would found a long buried treasure in it...instead he created that treasure...a love story that no one would ever forget.

In love with being inlove

Ive always believe in the thought of falling in love with being inlove.

When I was a kid, I used to watch different kind of romantic teleseries and then I would wonder what could had been the alternate ending of those stories. I would go to bed thinking how situations will turn out, how the characters will shift... how the scenes will get exciting, dramatic, fun, intense, cheesy... its quite a therapy for me. Every night I am inlove but not particularly with anybody... just with the thought of being inlove. I sometimes see old couples at the streets holding hands, I would smile and say to myself "I hope I'll have that someday." Because I havent really, actually fallen inlove with anybody, Im not really sure how it will turn out to be. But I believe love doesn't only pertain to romantic love, we can fall in love in so many ways... with arts, music, nature, time but most of all we can always fall in love with love.